Don't play Victim to Circumstances you Created
Falling into the trap of my old thoughts is nothing new for me. Sadly, I have become habitual to this. Mood swings from joblessness, twice in ten days, and I am not angry at all. Joblessness is a self inflicted test but mood swings are no reason for the circumstances I have created.
Indeed my problem is over thinking as I really need to do rightful and timely thinking, like the patience I showed when the Furniture guy came. Or when Mom brought out the Grandpa's habitual habit to Grandma. Her words were shocking, but then again they are only going to add to my vocabulary in future.
However, my patience needs to be more on my actions and rather than someone else's. It's actually pity of me to take pride in my patience on what others do when in reality I am losing it to my own actions. The victim card was never good in first place and I have over abused it.
What other's think is not my domain. I had a wonderful time on terrace and time actually passed good. There was no computer, no sitting in room, no porn and definitely no argument. How couldn't I actually see it before. A walk in the park in the evening and morning; maybe just lying on the moist ground. I have done it once as I remember and it was so peaceful.
My feelings will no more be victim and culprit.
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