About Me

its hard to describe oneself..

either one gets too diplomatic or humble or a loudmouth..

 

its the paradox of our complicated lives..

the world we live in and the people we meet..

 

i am no extraordinary person in this world..

yet i do think that my life is one so..

 

maybe because i think i have lived my own life only.

 

i don't know how the future will be for me..

maybe i can shape it into my own desires, whims and fancies..

or maybe the future will shape how i perceive the changes that are yet to happen in me, my life and my surrounding..

 

the world i live in and the people i interact with have taught me a lot about myself..

or maybe not..

 

some 19 years that i have lived..

some million people i might have met..

some friends i never noticed..

some enemies i took friends for..

some truth i was forced to know..

some lies i blatantly said..

some worries that eat me..

some relationships i yearn for..

some time i want just for myself..

some faces i wish i never had put..

and

some boundaries i never ever had crossed.

 

..life is complicated..

 

i am what i am..

 

maybe i can be better..

maybe i can't..

 

maybe i want to be someone else..

maybe i don't..

 

maybe i can make no difference to the world i live in..

maybe i can make a lot..

 

maybe i want to make some difference..

maybe i just don't..

 

i stand on the beach and gaze the sea..

its so simple.. yet so complicated..

its so romantic.. yet so lonely..

 

my life is like this only..

 

questions i am looking answers for..

answers i am looking question with..

some mismatch.. some adulterated..

or maybe it isn't like this..

 

i just know myself..

or maybe i don't..

 

i don't want to know anyone else..

or maybe i do..

 

my life is a mystery with many secrets..

a hedge with countless chambers..

a jigsaw puzzle with only few pieces that i know..

the more i try to solve it..

the more i get confused and lonely..

 

i don't know how many among all in my world i actually know..

or how many actually know me..

 

happiness always plays hide and seek with me..

i don't know who is hiding and who is seeking..

but we are old players i a unique relation..

from birth..

from sole..

from heart..

from blood..

from life..

 

i don't know how many times i have been myself..

maybe very few.. or maybe none..

but that is what nobody likes about me..

but do i have an option..

i don't know..

or do i..

 

maybe i like that..

maybe i don't..

 

maybe i want that..

maybe i don't..

 

want to say some more..

talk my heart this at least time..

this very moment of life..

know myself some more..

know more ABOUT ME..